I hope you managed to read part one of this series.
If not, you can revisit part one here.
I remember how I felt, sending that letter to my friends.
My heart bounced. I felt woozy and started to shake all over my body.
I felt like I was going to die.
At least, I knew that was not going to happen, but subconsciously, my body was preparing for a fight, flight, or freeze response.
Have you ever felt that way about something?
Relationships are a big deal to me.
I have the channel 37-40 activated in my chart, The Channel of Community, which is all about discovering where you belong, and wait to be invited in.
This Channel is all about relationships and family.
It happens to be so that in my life, everything is involved around relationships, whether it's about family or friendships or client relationships (or the lack of it, lol).
If I'm not around people, everything is fine.
But something is missing.
If I am around people, it all goes to sh*t, or it is like being in heaven... for a short while.
The Gate 37 is a Gate located in the Solar Plexus Center. If you have that Gate activated, it says a lot about how you emotionally connect with other people, through the waves of your Emotional energy.
It's not only this Channel or this Gate. I'm also a Projector.
Projectors need other people to live their purpose. They can't do it on their own.
Getting recognition and invitations is crucial for a Projector to thrive.
And the funny thing is... that recognition and those invitations almost always come from Generator types.
We're designed to guide and direct the Generator type.
But living amongst Generators is our biggest challenge as well.
We're being pushed by the Sacral energy all around us. We feel the pressure to push through, keep busy, and never give up. But that's exactly the opposite a Projector should do. We're actually designed to wait. We're designed to BE, not to do.
How do you match that with a Generator world?
Well, first of all, how you match it is a personal thing. There isn't just one way or one solution for everyone. Every Projector will have to find that out for him- or herself.
But there are a few things I can say about that:
As long as you follow your Strategy and listen to your Authority, taking the time to disconnect from Sacral energy regularly, having the courage to be vulnerable and say "no" when it is needed (you don't have to explain why!), you will be doing great!
But still, it's a challenge. Not everyone will understand how you're wired (most won't).
Your body is always looking for the most natural way of being. It is always trying to heal. You can resist because you feel afraid or want to avoid pain and conflict, but you will lose eventually.
Your design will challenge you because it wants to decondition. Deconditioning is a way of healing and reconnecting with your true self. Life always balances itself out eventually, and you're part of life. There's no escape from that (or it will cost you all of your energy, health, and happiness).
But that doesn't mean that you will never feel uncomfortable.
On the contrary, healing asks of you to feel uncomfortable a lot of the times, showing up for the hard conversations (like I have with my friends now), and being vulnerable to make authentic decisions, despite what other people think.
It is the way of living your life courageously.
Being a Projector is having a courageous life if you want to live your life authentically and be happy. It doesn't mean that you have to stand on top of the barricades, but it does mean that you need to listen to your inner guidance.
As Projectors, we may have to be more courageous than any other type (except for Reflectors, maybe), because this world is far from built for types like us. But because of being a Projector, we have so much to offer to the world; don't you ever forget about that.
It's so important, therefore, to know and stand in your own value.
It's so important to follow that Strategy of waiting and to listen to your Authority.
We truly are a blessing to this world, and as we come to evolve as human beings, you will notice that more and more Projectors will take on strong leadership roles, for we are the new leaders of the world.
But at the same time, you can only truly find your place in this world as a Projector, if you commit to the experience life brings you. That also does involve connecting with other people, of which mostly Generator types.
This all sounds like beautiful words, doesn't it?
Practically, it's way more complex and challenging, of course.
But you're not alone. We're all in this together, and as I said before: Projectors should stick together and support each other. Deal?
P.S. All my friends reacted with a lot of understanding and empathy. Although they will never know how it feels to be a Projector amongst Generators, they do accept me for who I am to the best of their abilities. It's also my responsibility, to be honest about how I feel and have the necessary hard conversations to clear the air ;-) Yay for me and my friends! (I hope you have great friends, too.)
I'd love to share my ideas, insights, and guidance with you. I invite you to subscribe to my e-mail list to keep you in the loop and learn more about my work — it's free!
Download "11 things I wish I knew earlier about having a business — from a Human Design's perspective" for free. You will also receive The Daisy Drop: personal stories and insights from my own Human Design experiment, in your inbox on Tuesdays.